Greetings and Salutations to all my lovely fellow fujoshi and fudanshi, it is Mistress of Yaoi and I’m not dead yet. I put a lot of pressure onto myself that I thought I was ready for earlier this month with the beginning of Junjou June which you will see is no longer here and you my followers deserve an explanation as to where that month of content has gone.
To put it bluntly I must admit I burnt myself out big time in the last couple of months with writing and other projects and a lot of it had to do with me not wanting to deal with what I should have been dealing with and just working to keep my mind busy. The problem with this is of course I was bound to burn out eventually and that happened to me right after the London attacks, that is not the only reason but the final piece that broke me.
I have been doing a lot of soul searching over the last few years to come to terms with well, me and though I had already discussed it with some friends and my partner earlier this month I pretty much came out as non-binary to my mother very publicly… one Facebook. Luckily i have had no negative feedback from anyone so far and my mother has sort of been supportive (I don’t think she fully understands, but she says as long as I am happy that is all that matters to her). So where does this leave ‘Mistress of Yaoi’?
Well I am still very anti SJW and the whole forcing others to use my preferred pronouns discussion pretty much came down to ‘call me whatever the fuck you want, just treat me with the respect I treat you with’ which of course I know will piss of some people in the same situation as me but the truth is I did this for me. not for some cry for attention, not to start drama or some great crusade. At the end of the day this is about me being honest with me and nothing more.
I’m still an online fangirl or fanboy. I still love yaoi and anime and I am still me it is just me with a label now, ironic I know when I have said before how anti label I can be, but being hypocritical just makes me as flawed as every other person out there. The anime and manga reviews will return next month hopefully but will not be as often. I am aiming in the future for quality over quantity and that is why the Junjou Romantica season 1 review is gone. It was not up to my personal standard.
To all my followers I hope you will continue this blog into the future, and don’t worry Mistress of Yaoi is not going anywhere just yet!
One moment of weakness, a single mistake snowballs into a flurry of emotions that could break Misaki and Usagi’s world forever, that is how I can best describe the fanfiction Mistake by DandereDaisy over on fanfiction.net.
I’m going to go off topic for Junjou June for this one post, because there is something I want to say about recent events. I must admit I am writing this while sitting in front of my T.V in Australia watching the One Love Manchester concert once again. I say one again because I had a hard nights sleep last night and woke up early enough to catch some of it live streaming on twitter, I also apologize for any grammar mistakes in this post but this is me once again pouring my emotions into this keyboard.
What has been happening in England for the last few years has been absolutely terrifying for me, because my greatest love in this world, my other half lives in England. This Aussie Anime Blogger is in love with the most wonderful British man and every time another attack happens over there my heart clenches so tight until I find out it was either no where near him or I get a message from him saying he is safe. Things in this world have even gotten to the point where if I got the money tomorrow to be by his side my mother has told me she will fight tooth and nail to keep me here in Australia.
This world is turning very much to hell on earth and it just seems to be getting worse and worse, maybe that is why I focus so much on fiction in my hobbies whether that be video games, books, movies or anime. I must confess I was actually considering putting the rest of Junjou June on hiatus due to recent events to sort out my own feelings, but after much thinking I have to say I will not be doing that and Junjou June will be going forward for the following reason.
Yaoi is Love!
Yuri is Love!
Anime is Love!
There is so much love and passion in the boys love and anime fandoms, because let’s face it us fujoshi and fudanshi alike are passionate people. I want to believe that love can make a difference to all the hate in this world and perhaps even beat hate one day. I would love to see all of us anibloggers whether they be yaoi fans or not make a statement to the world that love beats hate and that those with a voice will speak out for a better world. I’m not looking to change the world, I just want to feel safe in this world and not in the whole SJW politically correct ways, I’m talking about us all being safe to go out and not fear a terrorist attack in our own backyard.
One other thing I want to say before finishing this post, please do not hate all Muslims for the acts of a few extremists at the end of the day we are all people who deserve to live safe, all of us not just a select few.